feeling.. bad?

What the hell is this? I feel bad over eating a normal snack and dinner? What the hell? I don't know what is wrong with me sometimes. Do I feel out of control or something? Looser. Yepp, I call myself a looser. You know cause I'm cool like that. But I have to take my sister to her softball practice so tata for now(:

sup brahh?

Haha I guess I'm doing well. And I turn fourteen on thursdayy(: Yesssss. I have found some motivation to spend more time on my guitar and violin than more time using symptoms and brooding over past mistakes. I am getting there but my recovery motivation comes and goes quite frequently. :/ Sometimes I just wanna scream "fuck it!" and quit but I want more for myself. Yeahh, I was at Walking Wisely Weekend at my AMAZING North Point Community Church this past weekend and I opened up to the girls in my not-so-small group of 26+ 2 leaders. Nerve-wracking and anxiety provoking? HELL YES! I bit my nails down to stubs. Oops. But I did enjoy myself and love the retreat even though I missed the opening tournament for my softball team.. They lost ALL of the games with out me so it was okay, I would have wanted to be there and be embarrassed like that anyway. On a completely different note, my mother pisses me off. She legitimately nags me on everything. She says something once, okay. I get up to do it, she says it again, and again, and AGAIN. Roar I will eat your face shut up lady. And then she is convinced that I have taken her diet pills and whatnots. No, I have not and you should believe me when I say I have not. I am not a liar and I do not appreciate you calling me one. So, lady, please shut up and leave me alone.